"You cannot expect the world to accept you when you cannot even accept yourself", so said Magneto to Mystique in X-men: First Class.
This statement struck a corner of my memory. I was extremely exhausted one evening after returning from work many years ago. I cannot help but dragged my tired body and my heavy bag towards my mother feeling extremely stressed. I was, for a better word, burned out.
I started to tell my mother of the bad day that I have just been through and yet with so many things on my plate. I tear-ed to tell my mother that how I wish I am a man with less skills and abilities so I do not have to take on so many things.
I have this special ability (super power, if you must) to create and make things happened if I put my mind into it. It will just happen!
If that made me a mutated X-man, then I am in fact even better with a positive attitude that made me a Y-man (Y for Yes). I invite things into my life with no hesitation and made it my own without fail. I am too ready to believe first with ZERO doubt and zero-in again every time to make the best out of any situation. Napoleon is my soul mate in that regard, we have never took 'No' as an answer! Or Justin Bieber's 'Never Say Never', if you like…
But that night, I cried myself into dehydration and poured out my embedded feelings to my helpless mother. I was asking my 'creator' for the answer to who I am. I knew it was unfair to ask her but I had nowhere to go and I was desperate. I thought at that very moment that I would be happier being common or normal likes the rest. I have fewer things to be worried about naturally. People can also expect less from me if I am not so special.
Mother did not say many words as usual but she listened to every word that I said with unconditional love. I saw it in her eyes that she will always be proud of who I am as her son no matter how I was and how I turn out to be. She just wanted me to be happy. It was very clear to me as I was physically and mentally drained at that very moment. ZERO!
I have grown up from that evening to only embrace who I am as a person. Be truthful to yourself is not just a great service to you but a great service to everyone around you. I celebrate my abilities to the best that I can and share the joy with everyone that come into my life. I FORGIVE myself for being special, PERMIT myself to be special and BELIEVE that I shall thrive in my own special way!
Every Superhero known to us are “weirdoes” in their very own way, often with their tragic starts too. They all have good intentions to only seek acceptance by the common. In fact, all the Villains with special power also seek the same acceptance; their tragic continues only because they did it in a way that the world (the common) cannot understand.
I took cue from Spiderman in his words that, "With Great Power comes GREAT responsibility… This is my gift, my curse". I choose to believe that I am equipped to handle the super power in me. I have never looked back since that faithful night where everything becomes crystal clear to me.
By the way, I have good news for you! You are 'Special' and you have super power in you too!
Let's celebrate with Bruno Mars “~You are amazing, just the way you are…”!
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